Changes

So many times I think back on the whirlwind of these past few months and realize it is all for a reason. If my mom hadn't fallen I may not have taken the drastic steps to retire, and might have felt stuck in a job that was micromanaging me and controlling what I did even though I do everything by the regulations that are designated in the Code of Federal Regulations for meat inspection. If my mom hadn't fallen, I would not be faced now with putting her in a home or keeping her with me, even though over and over I have said she will be staying with me. Sitters are becoming scarce because the government chooses to waste money on people who could get out and work but are given everything so won't. The elderly suffer. I am amazed.

Most of all, mom's personality traits have really been coming out. The selfishness, the passive aggressiveness, the OCD and the lack of hope. She has had several good days though and it has had a positive effect on her. She went to the Arboreteum by University of Kentucky and loved it. She spent time with a dear sweet woman. It seems though that mom and I bring the worst out in the both of us. She insists on long dissertations to explain what she needs, I have this habit of calling her to her face a drama queen. Even though I took her with me to deliver information about my upcoming practice she insisted we go to eat and wouldn't brave the rain (which I cannot blame her) even though she wanted "a substantial meal", so settled on a sandwich place. She only ate part of it. Then later ate the rest which I thought was her dinner. Although she later got hungry and insisted she needed a substantial meal, BUT....she insisted on saying in dramatic fashion "I am weak".

At any rate, and regardless of whatever our relationship is, the next few months I will be able to spend more time as the new venture is an in-home venture. And there is always the Senior Center. Hopefully we can grow closer together because after all we are God's gift to one another.