FROM OUT OF NOWHERE

And so from out of nowhere I am hit by grief. From out of nowhere, I feel guilt. Was mom right, I can't do anything right? Did I do what I needed to do for her? Did I really help her by having her live with me? And waves upon waves pound against the shore. God is here with me, looming larger than the rock of Gibralter. God tells me over and over, He will never foresake me. Why do the waves of depression overcome me? I know it's human, and that God gives me the strength to hold fast but I still feel overwhelmed and still rely on other things to pull me through. I have to grow in Him. I have to realize that my faith is built on nothing less than Him and His Son.Now I just need to incorporate that into my being, like a Yogi does with meditation.